First Post

I am doing this because I have looked online for a long time someone like me. Someone I could ask what they would do if I needed advice. This is my diary of how I am going to like myself again. I have always been " big boned " but was told I was beautiful. I know I am not fat..... I am what most people would call thick or chubby. I have never been thin or skinny even when I had friends all around me starving themselves and puking in toilets. I played sports, but never broke a sweat on purpose.

I am going to force myself to workout, eat right, take better care of my body, better care of my skin and improve my sex life. I will take pictures of my progress as well as measurements along the way. I will post what I eat and drink. One thing I would like to share is that I also smoke pot. I try to not smoke but this is my biggest bad habit. It does help with stress and I don't plan on quiting anytime soon. Its natural... so get over it. I don't not like to drink alcohol often but will drink once or twice a month.

I just ordered a scale so I wont know what I weigh till I get it in the mail. But I am 5'4.
I guess I don't have a lot of info but I will give measurements tomorrow if I can find my measuring tape. Well lets hope I start to change tomorrow!

Its late and I have been trying to work on my sex life with the boyfriend. After being together for such a long time I have forgotten how to come on to him. I try and then stop myself. I just later use my friend the bullet to take care of my needs then sneak into bed...... Last night I went to bed at 2 am. Spooned with him then he woke up and took over. But I know I need to just get on top of him and take over....... wtf is stopping me? is it really that I am lazy? is that why I am fat? Well that's what I am here to work on so ....... goodnight

p.s. I am off to get a mt dew and some chocolate out of the fridge.... tonight is the last night ; )